In Numbers 12:7,8 God says, "he (Moses) is faithful in all my house. With him I speak face to face, clearly and not in riddles; he sees the form of the Lord."
WOW! WOW! WOW! If one wants God to speak, the way he spoke to Moses, one must seek to be faithful in all God's house (the Kingdom of God).
I have truly been inspired today. God, I want to see you face to face. I will be faithful to do your will today. Amen.
Okay, so the great and noble family thing isn't working for me today (
Oh well, we all knew it wouldn't last, didn't we?) I need some new motivation today.
I wish I had enthusiasm like Meryl Streep portrayed Julia Child having in the movie "Julie & Julia". There is a scene in the movie where Julia Child leaps out of bed, and dashes off to cooking school. She is so excited about her life that she doesn't want to waste a moment immersing herself in it. And, this was not just one morning. Julia met each morning in this way.
That's how I want to be. I don't wanna have to come up with new motivations to live my life to the fullest. I want ONE thing, SOME thing, that will be such a strong motivator, that I just leap out of my bed each morning... excited to be apart of the life I've been given.
I guess for now, I'll settle for a cup of hot coffee to warm my bones. Hopefully, on the journey to the coffee pot and back, some motivating though will occur to me and I'll get moving.
Lesson #1: Stop waiting on someone else.
I spend way too much time waiting on other people to help me be productive. I have to realize, I'm not around leaders in this area. Most of the people around me are just like me. I have to become the leader. If I wanna see change, I'm the one who has to facilitate change.
Lesson #2: Learn when to walk away.
I have to accept that I'm not going to complete everything I set out to do. Some tasks can't be completed right away. I need to learn to walk away, to be okay with coming back some other time. I get so bogged down trying to complete some things that I sacrifice everything and everyone in my life. This is not healthy. It is actually another face of procrastination. By tying myself up with one thing, I avoid doing other things, like cooking dinner, or paying bills. I need to develop the art of walking away from projects at a certain cut-off point. I think I should start by committing to work no longer than 30 minutes on any given project or task. If it takes longer than a half hour, I need to reschedule it, then move on.
Today was a good day. I feel really good about what I've accomplished. I am hesitant to say this, but I will. I believe I'm turning a corner in my life.
(I've said this before, many times before, probably a ZILLION times before... I know. And each time, within days, I found myself right back in the midst of a procrastination binge. But hey, I wanna believe this time is different. So, sue me!)
Now, as I was saying... I believe I'm turning a corner. Today I approached my responsibilities with the thought that each task was my contribution to a wonderful family. A wonderful family, accomplishing great and noble things in the world. For example: while making the bed, I thought to myself, "This is the bed of a great and noble husband and wife. I want to make sure they have a clean and welcoming bed to rest in when they arrive home from a long day of hard work." It was like I was doing my small part in making life easier for a family that works so hard to help others.
This line of thinking was very motivating for me. And the nice thing about it is, my family is the real recipient of all I've accomplished today. It's like I'm part of a self-fulfilling prophecy. If I keep pursuing purpose, one day we WILL be that great and noble family.
Today is my official start. This is the first day of the rest of my life! I was going to post my todo list but I've decided that the best thing to do is post how I feel about my day instead of what things where checked off. I don't want to get caught up valuing my progress by the numbers of checks I get. If I do one thing all day and it makes me feel productive then it's progress.
READY, SET, GO!
I was typing in a Meta Description for this blog and I became newly inspired to get my life on track. Here is what I wrote:
"My personal journey from a life of procrastination, mediocrity and an aimless existence to a life focused on the consistent pursuit of my God given purpose."
Entering the meta description reminds me. A few years ago, with the help of a life coach, I wrote a mission statement that I once found really motivating. I'm reposting it here, hoping it will help me stay focused on what matters most. The mission statement is based on the idea of being courageous enough to live one's life authentically.
Courageous Authenticity Mission Statement
Love my neighbor and myself. Being grateful for what we are and not hindered by what we are not. This love being expressed through:
I wasn't very productive today. I started out working on removing a virus on my kids computer.. a good thing to do... not a scheduled thing to do, but a good none the less. Then, I got completely sidetracked and began watching hours of missed episodes of A&E's "The Jack5ons, A Family Dynasty." I KNOW, RIGHT! You don't have to say it... I already know I need to get a life. LOL! But I can't help it. I'm intrigued by this family. I've loved the Jackson's since I was a little girl. I grow up on nursery rhymes and Jackson 5 songs. So now that I have the opportunity to peak into their world and see their humanity... well, I can't resist.
But I know... your are right, HOURS of watching is excessive. I make a promise; I will not do that again.
(I'll make sure not to miss so many episodes, so I don't have so much to catch up on 
).
My next big faux pas was spending huge amounts of time on the telephone with a girlfriend. I guess the only productive thing I did in the home yesterday was read with my son.
Waking at 5 a.m. (Update 2)
As far as rising early goes... I did wake up at 5 a.m. this morning. But I fell right back to sleep five minutes later. Thank goodness for a friend of mine who called me at 5:15 a.m. to tell me schools have a two hour delay due to snow. That was just the jolt I needed to completely wake me.
I think I need to invest in a small coffee pot to place by my bedside. You know, the kind you can program to start brewing when you need to wakeup?! I received two giftcards this past Christmas and I was wondering what I should purchase. I think I just figured it out. Yay, for me!!! via hillsidegrl.typepad.com
OK... here is the new plan:
First, I'm gonna get in bed now and get at least 2.5 hours of sleep before I need to wake my dear son up and get him ready for school.
After I drop him off, I'll come back home and get a shower and "dress to shoes," (shout out to all the flybabies) then head to work for 2 or 3 hours.
The next thing I have to figure out is: should I take a nap when I get back home or should I just stick it out until bedtime? When I took a nap yesterday I ended up staying up all night and missing my 5 a.m. goal. I think I'll play it by ear. I'll plan to come home and do some chores. If I get really tired, I may take a small cat nap. I hope I won't have to take one though... I think it's best to just stick it out. I don't wanna sabotage another morning.
Well, I blow this one right out of the water...like 4 hours ago. I've been working on this new blog instead of going to bed. The 5a.m. wake-up plan will have to wait 'til tomorrow... seeing as it will be here in only 35 more minutes.
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